I remember when I first met you. I was hesitant but my fear slowly turned into eagerness. The more I learnt, the more I wanted to know. I’ve known you for a while now and forgive me for thinking that I know all that there is to know about you. I’ve read your letters over and over again, searching for something new. Praying that you will reveal yourself to me. Waiting to feel the way that I did when I first met you. Our conversations are a little repetitive and I take full responsibility for that. I’m sorry. I’ve changed since we first met. I’ve changed for you and because of you. I’ve changed and I have grown to like who I am becoming. But recently, I’ve changed and because of it, I feel as though we have changed.
You haven’t lost me. I promised long ago to keep walking with you and I don’t ever want to break that promise. I remember when I first heard the Gospel, your love seemed unbelievable. I guess that is why I was playing it safe before. I was scared. The fear is slipping away. Please don’t feel like I am testing you. I’m testing myself. I’m testing my faith. I’m beginning to understand that there is no perfect formula. As long as I remember you and honour you, I won’t feel alone.
So hey First Love, things have changed. I have changed and because of that we have changed, but this is not the end. I am forever yours!